I've always wanted...that's a loaded question. I think the first thing that comes up is that I've always wanted love in my life -- deep, meaningful love. I suppose that has its own layers in it. It's the umbrella in which everything underneath it exists.
Singing makes me feel
incredibly insecure and powerful, all at the same time. You let it
all out and sometimes you get to the moment when you become fully
aware that you actually sang and you say, “Oh my god, did anyone
see me or hear me do that?”
I love it and I'm really
petrified of it, all at the same time. But, I love it. I know no
other.
When I write songs, I'm at
my most self critical. Songwriting is not easy for me, because, I
have to know exactly how to say something... So, for instance, a
lyric could be as simple as “baby, I love you,” but, I've
probably thought about that “baby, I love you” in such a way that
it had to be sung right. It had to be right for how it was going to
move itself into the next line, for how it would make me envision
things and how it would become fully realized.
I have to be
incredibly focused (and) by myself for a long while before I put it
on paper. Then, once I've started to put it on paper, I realize I've actually
done this really sort of internal experience with it and then written
it (to where) it becomes more pragmatic. Then, I put the puzzle
together.
It could be incredibly
simple to the listener and maybe that's exactly how I meant it to be.
But, there's depth to the meaning, because, of how I set it up and
how I resolved it.
People often ask me what
was Prince like or how it feels to be a twin.
When I auditioned for
Quincy Jones, I didn't audition in front of him. I sent him a tape
of an Aretha Franklin track (“Until You Come Back to Me”) that I
had recorded with a friend of mine in his studio. I was just 19,
maybe not even 19 yet, and I got the call. (Jones) called my father,
who told me “You got the gig!” and I was like “What?!” There
were only six of us who made it out of a 1,000 people who auditioned
and I was the only white girl. I never felt more proud in my entire
life. I was like “Yes, yes, yes! I am a sister!”
(Jones) had known my
father for years...They knew each
other in the early 1950s and then they started playing together in
the 1960s and 1970s in Los Angeles. They had always been close.
There was a vocal
contractor that worked with (Jones) who was at my father's house and
that's how I found out about it. I had just graduated from high school and I was visiting
my dad. He said, “Oh by the way, Tom is actually looking for
vocalists for this a cappella group that (Jones) is putting together. I
think you should try out for it.” I said okay and that's how that
happened. It came from my father getting the call and also Tom being
there talking on behalf of (Jones). It was kind of like a family thing...
I started working for
Prince when I was 19. He had been spending a lot of time at my house,
because, Wendy, Lisa and I were roommates. After high school, we
always lived together. Lisa had gotten the gig with Prince and, when
he would come into town, he would stay with us.
I was really young, right
out of high school, and I was working for David Geffen as the
receptionist at (Geffen Records). I had just done the
audition for (Jones) and Wendy wanted to play Prince my demo of the
Aretha Franklin track. All I could say was “Please don't play it
for him. Oh my God!”
I went into my bedroom. It
was 500 square feet, so, the bedroom wasn't very far from the
kitchen. They were all sitting at the kitchen table listening to my
track. Then the next thing I knew, Prince said “Why don't you come
work with us? You should be with our group of people and you know
this is where you belong.” I said " You know you're
absolutely right.”
So, Prince and I had a
long conversation at that point and I said, “You know I'm working
with (Jones) right now. It was hard to get this this gig.”
The next thing I knew, I'm
calling (Jones) in the middle of the night. I said, “I just can't
sleep, I don't know what to do. I was offered a gig working with
Prince. I kind of want to do it, my sister's there, my best friend
who I grew up with (is there)...”
Long story short, he said,
“How could you not want to do that? Go, baby. If you can't sleep at
night and that's where you need to be, you need to be there. Don't
think twice about it.” So, I got his graces.
From then on, I started
working (for Prince), singing backup and being called in to sing on
this or that track. I was singing on a couple tracks for the Apollonia
6 record when they were filming “Purple Rain.”
Susannah Melvoin on
Prince songs that she inspired: The infamous “Wally,” which no
one heard because he destroyed the tape. There's a huge story behind
that. “Strange Relationship;” “Nothing Compares 2 U;” In a
Large Room with No Light;” “If I was Your Girlfriend.” God, you
know there's more and I can't remember...
My band mates are my big
brothers. We couldn't be more different. We are such different
personalities and it all goes perfectly together. It's a crazy
gumbo.
I'm like their punk-rock girlfriend. I make such trouble. I'm
literally like the girl where they say “Where's Susannah? Where is
she? What's she doing?”
I say “I'm here, I'm
not doing anything.” I always think I'm like the innocent one and they
say, “You're a pain in the ass” and I say, “I am not!”
I love them, though. But,
they don't carry my luggage very often and I hate them for that. They
leave it up to me to pack the van.
“The Screams of Passion”
music video is hard for me to remember... I was so young and I was
inexperienced with that kind of thing. We had been in rehearsals for
such a long time to go on the road. We were rehearsing for a year before we went and did our first gig.
Doing the music video was
just part of the rehearsal thing, (because), we were in work mode. I
saw it only as a job, but, not a job where I said, “Oh, this is a
pain in the ass to do and I wish I was home by 5 p.m.” No. It was
all part of what we were working on at the time. It was sort of a
package deal in terms of how I felt about it. It was just part of the
plan.
I remember not having any
expectations. Prince let us do a lot, too. There's a lot of people
who think, that we, as The Family, didn't have any influence. But,
that's not the case. He was there for part of the video, but, he
wasn't really there (all the time). He wasn't the little guy dictator
in the background saying “No, they can't do this or this is how it
should be.” It wasn't like that. We had done pre-production for
such a long time. We had fun, but, I wouldn't say that we were in heaven about it. It just wasn't like that. My memory of it was just
working really hard. That's what I remember about it.
fDeluxe's look was
inspired by film noir. It was inspired by mid-to- late 1940s noir
films with smoking jackets, fast dialogue and black-and-white glamour.
It was Prince's concept
to put us together. The reason (the band) was (previously) called The Family was,
because, we had all been working within the Prince organization: I
was the staff singer; (Peterson) was the keyboard player for The
Time; (Johnson) was the drummer for The Time and (Leeds) was a horn player for Prince.
When the Time disbanded,
we all felt bad, because, they were a bad-ass band.
But, everybody wanted to play and Prince wanted to hear people play. He was also in a place where he was fertile with music. He said, “We're like a big family here... I'm going
to get (Peterson), because, people don't realize what a bad-ass
singer he is. You guys will be the lead singers in the band. We're
gonna do this, we're gonna play together. How about that?”
He wanted to sell records
and he believed this band was going to be the way to do it. We were
the first band that he put together and produced with the idea that "this is going to do something." It wasn't a fly-by-night project. It
had weight to him and to us.
The 1985 First Avenue
Concert...we had the best time. It was great. I mean I look at it
now--because, I have looked at it-- and I said “Oh my god!” It's
amazing what young kids we were and we just kind of went for it. We
were like crazy puppies on stage. It was a lot of fun and the house
was sold out. We worked really frickin' hard for that show to get out
there and do that... It's great seeing it. I laugh a lot when I watch
it. I can't even believe that's me! My favorite moment was singing
“Nothing Compares 2 U.” It was just a great moment to sing with
(Peterson). It still is for us when we sing it.
It all changed for fDeluxe when (Peterson) decided he wanted to have a solo career. It was
understandable, because, none of us got paid enough money and he had
a family. He needed to support his family and it was kind of
difficult.
As “hired guns” we got
paid weekly. We got paychecks and it wasn't a lot of money. No joke.
I mean, it's embarrassing. But, when we were that young, it was for
the love of the music. I didn't have a family, so, I wasn't worried
about the kids, the mortgage or anything like that. I was along for
the ride. But, it was a really long time before anyone – and it
wasn't with the Prince organization-- made money.
Susannah Melvoin on
designing the Dream Factory album cover: Prince and I used to draw
together. He was actually a really great artist. I was really into
it, too. I would always have a pad and I was always drawing. I've
been drawing since I was a kid. We would sit down and we would draw
together. One particular night he couldn't come up with an album
cover (for Dream Factory). I came up with a couple of different ones. One of them was
actually a dramatized version of myself, opening up a door into this
dream world, with images that were based on some of the songs. I remember
that there was a lot of white space, because, I couldn't fill up the
background with color... Everything was kind of drawn onto white
paper. But, the doors were very ornate and I'm opening the door into
the Dream Factory. The second album cover
didn't have me on it. It just had the name Dream Factory, with some
things hanging off the words. I used to do murals in
the house where Prince lived, incredible, crazy murals that he
would ask me to paint. We were always into doing stuff like that.
Humor... Oh my god, if
there is no humor, I'd rather stick a hot poker in my eye and pass
away. I have no reason to do anything if I'm not laughing. That's
where I'm not joking. I have to laugh and I have to continue to
laugh. If the laughter stops, I'm done. If the laughing stops, that
means the fat lady sang and we're done. That's the beauty of being in
my band with these guys, they're the funniest people you have
ever met.
I'm always surprised by
racism, bigotry and war mongering.
My musical influences,
this is a hard one. I had so many life
experiences with different artists. When I was a really little girl,
the biggest influences-- where I would put on the records and try to
sing that way—were Aretha Franklin, Stevie Wonder and Joni
Mitchell. That was always a given for me. That was really, really
early on. Those were the records that I had in the house, because, of
my parents.
I would say after I
turned 8 years old, I started getting into other listening
experiences. But, the Aretha Franklin and Joni
Mitchell records were the ones I sang to, that the words meant something to me. Every single Joni Mitchell record that I had was
like my growing up as a kid. She said the words I wanted to say.
But, the music moved me with Stevie Wonder and all of his early
records. Those albums had huge impacts on me, in shaping who I am; not the just the music that I love, but, how I think.
A common misconception
about me... Well, I've never really heard this from people, but, what
I'm going to guess is how short I am. People always think I'm
incredibly tall, because, I have long arms and long legs. So, when
they meet me they say “Oh, you're just a peanut!”
People who come out to the
shows and meet me, they're always surprised that I talk to anybody,
that I am absolutely open to talking to them and that I have an open
heart. Human beings are human beings. I am no better of a species...
I just happen to do this
and I'm glad they're all there to have fun with me. That really
surprises people. I'm surprised by that myself. How else would I be?
Why would I ostracize anybody that's having a good time with me?
If you've been through a
lot of heartache in your life and you are not one of the so-called
privileged, you know what you have and you are grateful. You
become really in touch with things that can be gone in two seconds.
Those are the people you can actually have conversations with,
because, they don't have time to waste time. To be anything
other than real is just a waste of time.
Say what you mean, but,
don't say it mean. I have no fear of talking to people. If you don't
like me, fine, I don't even have a grudge about that. It just is what
it is.
Wendy, Lisa and I are
family forever. They happen to be really, really funny. That's why I
stick around (laughs).
John Cusack is very funny
and smart.
Susannah Melvoin on
playing the lead role in “Under the Cherry Moon”: We were on our
way to Paris to hunker down and study the script and get that all
sorted out. Some other things went down and the next we were doing
was me not being in the lead of the film. Which I'm grateful
for. It was a blessing in disguise.
Under the Cherry Moon...
The record (Parade) is fantastic. It was a very, very loaded time. There was lots of stuff going on, but, the record was amazing. The
“Girls and Boys” music video was shot in Nice on the set of the
film. It was actually fantastic. I remember it being really grand.
There we were in Nice and it was so beautiful there. It was just kind
of a magical time. I felt like a princess. I think all us
girls did, because of the hair and makeup. We were like “Oh my God,
this is fantastic! Do me!” It was really fun.
I want my fans to know
that sadness... is like the clouds. They come in different shapes and
different colors, but, they pass, and somewhere along the line the
light comes out. Then the clouds come again. You should just breathe
deep...and vote!
“Miss Understood” was
not put on the (first) album, because, I didn't want it to be. I wanted
it for the second record and I wanted to re-cut it. There wasn't time
to re-cut it before it was going to mastering and I said “Prince,
you can't put this on, I'm not happy with it. Let's wait until the
second record.” Then we both decided to just do that.
But, that never happened.
It's just floating around out there in the ether, totally not the way
I wanted it, but, whatever... It was just way too
insincere. I didn't believe myself at all, how would anyone else
believe me? It just wasn't something I was comfortable with. At the time, I sang it so many different times to give it something and
I was sort of given direction on that song by Prince. I was just not
feeling it.
But, at the end of the
day, once I was done, I said, “Can I just do this again on the next
record? Can I just re-cut it? There's some other ideas that I've come
up with so I can get these words out.” Prince was nice about it. He
was just said “Of course, let's wait for the second one. Let's just put (the album) out as is and we'll redo it the
next time." I said “Great!”
There were two tracks that
had been done that were going to be put on the second record. But,
that was all put in the vault, because, (Peterson) left. But, we
definitely had the plan of doing it. (Peterson's) unreleased track
had something to do with a tiger or a jaguar, or something like that.
I can't remember. You would have to ask him. It had to do with some
animal.
fDeluxe is a bad ass band.
Come see us live.
I wish I could pay my
mortgage.
The music business...
there is no music business. It's just the “ic” business. It's the
I-C of the business...there's no muse, it's just the “ic.”
If there is a music
business, whatever business it is, has nothing to do with music. It
has nothing to do with artists, it has nothing remotely to do with
anything I, or my artist friends, do for a living...
You certainly can't even
sell music anymore. It's not about even selling music or making
music, because, there is no money in making music. There's only money
in selling...a part of your brand that has nothing to do with the
music. That's a whole new world for artists now. But, that's the
world that I live in and I'm not
even talking about the ones that have no history. Those people have
it even harder.
Luckily, I've had a history
(and) I'm heavily involved in the social media aspect of it. I'm
heavily involved with my fans. I'm very involved in structuring how (my music) is heard. This is all pioneer stuff. Nobody out there has a
clue on how it's going to work. There are some models, which people
are going by, but, even those aren't a guarantee. It's just like work
your ass off and something may stick. Maybe.
But, hopefully, we can get
out there and play... If you're lucky enough you have an agent who says
“Yeah, we're going to put you out. Even if you have to play shit
clubs, we're going to still put you out.” That's better than
literally being told “There's no room for you out there in the
touring world and you're going to have to figure it out for yourself”
or “You're going to have to pay to play," which is even harder.
So, in the music business,
there is no muse. The muse is the thing that I was referring to, the
inspiration. That's what a muse does. It's something or someone that
inspires me to write a particular record... There's no muse in the music business
anymore...
I've worked with amazing
people...my dream artists. I've worked with everybody I've ever
wanted to and I feel blessed: Stevie Wonder, Erykah Badu, D'Angelo,
Bilal, my sister and Lisa, the musicians in fDeluxe, Oliver
Leiber, Chaka Khan...
Clare Fisher, talk about
a muse. He was my inspiration for getting the strings on the (first) record. Clare had done work with my father —my father being the
arranger and Clare being the string arranger. So, I had that
“in,” although, that was not how I was thinking about it at the
time.
Prince and I were
listening to a bunch of Rufus records back in the day-- and this was
before we thought about doing strings on the first record. We were talking about how brilliant the strings were on those
albums. I had also been listening to a lot of Claus Ogerman and Bill
Evans. There's one record they did called Symbiosis and it's just
one of the most beautifully arranged records. Ogerman's string
arrangement, and Evans playing the piano over it, is some of the
most beautiful music I have ever heard.
The only thing that's
ever came close to feeling as perfectly arranged in terms of the
strings was on the Ruficized record. I just said, “Prince, why
don't we get Clare to do the strings on our record?” He said, “Yeah.” I said, “My dad knows him.” I called my dad and said
“Pop, you gotta call Clare and see if he's up for it.” He
was.
We sent him the 24 track. He got back to us right away and said “Absolutely.” Within a
month we had all the lead sheets and we had the entire score for the
record. We went in and cut it and I couldn't have been happier.
Cut to this record
(Gaslight) and Clare's son, Brent Fischer, who managed him. (Clare
Fischer passed away two years ago). Brent would do all of his
father's transposing, writing, and he would do all the lead sheets
for his dad. Then he started to actually compose. So, I had gotten in
touch with him.
(Peterson) and I were in
my garage where we recorded my record on Pro Tools. We called Brent
and said, “You know your dad did the first record...Would you be up
for listening to this one and see what you think?” He said, “I
absolutely will.” But, we couldn't afford it, no matter how we
tried to budget it, we just couldn't afford it.
To make a long story
short...(Peterson) went in on some of my sister's and Lisa's string
programs and with my chirpy little ears, I was that gal who said, “This is beautiful, but, we have to have to make it more
heartbreaking...” Brent actually heard it later and said “My dad
would be so proud. I couldn't have done better.”
I was in heaven about
that. (Peterson) is really smart. I
just want you to know he's a total savant. He's a dork, too. That makes him even more of
a savant. He's got all those fun qualities.
I wasn't always...blonde?
Will I ever make a living being a musician?
The Revolution...best band Prince ever had.
I've learned that feelings
aren't facts...and that took me a look time.
The response to the fDeluxe reunion was a total surprise and a shot in the arm.
The Carnegie Hall concert
was the best night of my life. Playing Carnegie Hall with my most
beloved sister, all those other artists and my band...It was all
good. It's too bad Prince took all the footage off (the Internet).
You can't find footage of that anywhere anymore, but, It was on there for
a while.
Recording “Gaslight”
was liberating. A lot people had never heard me sing like that...It
was really satisfying to put my song on there...and show that I could
throw myself into a track like that. It was liberating and absolutely
fantastic. I had written that song years ago.
Looking back...I don't do
much of that anymore. But, if I do look back at all, I'm just glad
I'm not there anymore. I'm glad I'm where I'm at. Life goes on. I've
got the best two babies in the world.
The future is always
uncertain.
Check out fDeluxe online
at fdeluxe.com.
Stay beautiful, Kristi